Mrs. Words

What do you say when you failed a relationship? You will start blaming time. The thought of "the timing isn't right" will burst out of your mind, being the first cause of why some relationship doesn't work. Why some people aren't together. Why they ghosting other people.  We start using timing as an excuse of why we don't act. Why we never pick up the phone to say we miss them or apologize of things we did to them. Why we met all the wrong people in--we say--the right time and all the right people in what we thought, the wrong time. Timing become an excuse of why life didn't align to the things we want, instead brings us to the things we don't know we need it yet.  Since then we become obsessed with the terms 'good timing', but what exactly a good timing is? Is it when all the things makes sense to us? Or when every moment become convenient for us? Or when we finally have the courage to the things we always want to do, so we kinda feel t...

Sometimes we're so addicted in being someone's good story. Somebody's happy ending. The reason why someone change. The fact that "i change my life since i met her". The beginning. The drama that happened over and over again. The sentimental story that ended up good and we, are the one who plays our part right. Maybe that's why i stay in so many shitty relationship. In the name of "fixing people". Attracted to troubled man, trying to show what does love feel like. Feel happy when i think they're getting better because of us, but actually, it is them who finally realizing their worth on their own. The idea of someone, lost in their way, doesn't know what love is, or never experience the love like what we have. The need to save those kind of people. Who we think lost because they never have love like us. The one who we think the same as us because we've been there. We know all the pain. The rejection. The feeling of being left out. Th...

As someone who drawn into the world of Instagram, i have those couples that i love to see. I even followed both of their Instagram to see what is the girl said about him, what is the boy said about her, what are the captions, what thing do they post that makes me sometimes feel jealous and screams internally to God (which i know He would hear it anyway) about why they have to be so adorable and so on point. Their relationship is everything. Everyone want to be like them. Everyone worship them to the ground they walk on. No one forget to leave a cute comment sayings about how that is a relationship goals and how the relationship should be like that, following with the wishes for the couple to be marry or anything and roots for them to be together until they die. Other people's love story might be beautiful. They might be wonderful, teary-eyed and the one you kinda wish it happen in your life. Some of them even dramatic, some of them are unbelievably sweet. They might po...