Mrs. Words

We keep wondering if things could be different for both of us. If time would be more convenient. If he and we actually end up together, instead of looking to each other from the other side of the road.  Either it's a not yet, next time, some other time, or even one day in the near future, there's nothing wonderful and joyful in being someone's almost. we experience a lot of almost in this so-called modern-day dating. Where the two of us could talk so deep, having lots of undeniably fun time together and it feels like we know this person for years. Then it's just gone. Vanished. It's like both of our head gets struck by the pavement and wake up not remembering anything. He can easily decide that we're not his person anymore and move on to find another. Almost is when the two of us lay in the same bed together but realizing the fact that this connection we just build goes up the roof the minute you walk out through that door.  Almost every almost-relationsh...

Right now in life, everything seems like you're coming to a dead-end. To the end of the road. At the edge of a cliff.  You absolutely have no idea where life might take you. You keep thinking of the life you've been picturing for so long--and this life isn't even close to what you're dreaming of. You haven't been on the place where you should be right now. That dream job hasn't been yours. Even the plan of getting married by 25 is forgotten because hell, every guy wants to take it 'casual' right now. You try to play it cool, try to brush it off. Telling people that 'I am living in my own timeline' or 'Things will falls into place for me one day' but you can't help to wonder: when is that 'one day' will actually happens to you? Why aren't you living the same timeline like your bestfriend who's already pregnant with her second child? Aren't you good enough either to be a mom? Why are you keep doing the same job...

Sometimes we're so addicted in being someone's good story. Somebody's happy ending. The reason why someone change. The fact that "i change my life since i met her". The beginning. The drama that happened over and over again. The sentimental story that ended up good and we, are the one who plays our part right. Maybe that's why i stay in so many shitty relationship. In the name of "fixing people". Attracted to troubled man, trying to show what does love feel like. Feel happy when i think they're getting better because of us, but actually, it is them who finally realizing their worth on their own. The idea of someone, lost in their way, doesn't know what love is, or never experience the love like what we have. The need to save those kind of people. Who we think lost because they never have love like us. The one who we think the same as us because we've been there. We know all the pain. The rejection. The feeling of being left out. Th...