Mrs. Words

What do you say when you failed a relationship? You will start blaming time. The thought of "the timing isn't right" will burst out of your mind, being the first cause of why some relationship doesn't work. Why some people aren't together. Why they ghosting other people.  We start using timing as an excuse of why we don't act. Why we never pick up the phone to say we miss them or apologize of things we did to them. Why we met all the wrong people in--we say--the right time and all the right people in what we thought, the wrong time. Timing become an excuse of why life didn't align to the things we want, instead brings us to the things we don't know we need it yet.  Since then we become obsessed with the terms 'good timing', but what exactly a good timing is? Is it when all the things makes sense to us? Or when every moment become convenient for us? Or when we finally have the courage to the things we always want to do, so we kinda feel t...

Sometimes we're so addicted in being someone's good story. Somebody's happy ending. The reason why someone change. The fact that "i change my life since i met her". The beginning. The drama that happened over and over again. The sentimental story that ended up good and we, are the one who plays our part right. Maybe that's why i stay in so many shitty relationship. In the name of "fixing people". Attracted to troubled man, trying to show what does love feel like. Feel happy when i think they're getting better because of us, but actually, it is them who finally realizing their worth on their own. The idea of someone, lost in their way, doesn't know what love is, or never experience the love like what we have. The need to save those kind of people. Who we think lost because they never have love like us. The one who we think the same as us because we've been there. We know all the pain. The rejection. The feeling of being left out. Th...

First, i know it's a little bit crazy, coming from a girl who never dated you. But i'm gonna break up with you.  We were never an exclusive. We were never an item. But i like to believe we almost were. We were never saying 'i love you' to each other. But we have the 'zing'. I know we have the zing when i met you in front of my office when you picked me up from work, asking so eagerly to meet me just before i went to Singapore for vacation. Seems like you want to prove something for yourself and you were too afraid to let me go by even for a day. The zing was too obvious to ignore. I felt it and you felt it too, but you were holding yourself and politely saying be careful on my trip and wishing that you could see me again after my trip.  We worked so well together. There's never a day that our conversation stopped because it gets too boring. Usually because you have to go home, or there's some work getting in your way, or i get too busy with my wor...

If he wanted to work things out, he would. He would still say i love you when you fight. He will tone his voice down because it's you that he's trying to win, not his ego. He will say sorry first, regardless who makes the mistakes first. He will come to your house, even though your house is 1 hour driving by car. He would be patient, because he realize you need time. He would still say good morning even though you two fights the night before without resolving anything. He willing to talk things out, without keeping it and let it blow your relationship off into pieces. If he wanted to call you, he would. He will try to call you or at least text to know how your day were. Because he realize that when he let a day go by without talking to you, that day is just no good. He will let you know what is he doing whenever it is because he doesn't want to worry you. He will listen to you, because he really interested in your thought. Not just making small conversation. If h...

Here's the thing about the guy you will marry. You always wishes for the perfect husband. The right guy. The "it" guy. The guy that fit to everyone's description about 'what's a perfect husband look like'. Well, most of you don't know that, there's no thing as the perfect guy to marry. Lol why?  You know, the guy you will marry may not be the most handsome of all. He may not be the most funny, the smartest or the sexiest man alive like Blake. But to you, he's gonna be the most sexiest, the funniest, the smartest and the most handsome of all guy you ever know because the love you have for him gonna make you change all of your description of an 'it' guy, to meet his description.  Suddenly, you find that his awful lame, dad jokes is funny and the way he ate ice cream is sexy, and his smiling face is addicted because it's him who doing it.  Also, the guy you will marry will always makes you feel at home because you alway...

As someone who drawn into the world of Instagram, i have those couples that i love to see. I even followed both of their Instagram to see what is the girl said about him, what is the boy said about her, what are the captions, what thing do they post that makes me sometimes feel jealous and screams internally to God (which i know He would hear it anyway) about why they have to be so adorable and so on point. Their relationship is everything. Everyone want to be like them. Everyone worship them to the ground they walk on. No one forget to leave a cute comment sayings about how that is a relationship goals and how the relationship should be like that, following with the wishes for the couple to be marry or anything and roots for them to be together until they die. Other people's love story might be beautiful. They might be wonderful, teary-eyed and the one you kinda wish it happen in your life. Some of them even dramatic, some of them are unbelievably sweet. They might po...

Be with someone who make time for you.  Someone you don't have to beg for their time. Be with someone who always can be contacted, whenever you need them without having to hear "I'm too busy" or "Awe, not this thing again". Some says that if we really mean that much for someone, they'll make time. They'll come through. They'll answer every phone call and reply your text back without making you have to wait or purposely make you wait. Someone who make time for you will put your needs above others, even theirs. It's the matter of priorities and you, will always be on their first. Be with someone who always calls you beautiful . Not because they are flirty, or they want something from you. Let alone they are hiding something shifty from you. But because you deserve it and you do look beautiful everyday. Be with someone who compliments your long hair, your short hair, your dark skin, your white pale skin, your face that is full of acnes, your...