Mrs. Words

Right now in life, everything seems like you're coming to a dead-end. To the end of the road. At the edge of a cliff.  You absolutely have no idea where life might take you. You keep thinking of the life you've been picturing for so long--and this life isn't even close to what you're dreaming of. You haven't been on the place where you should be right now. That dream job hasn't been yours. Even the plan of getting married by 25 is forgotten because hell, every guy wants to take it 'casual' right now. You try to play it cool, try to brush it off. Telling people that 'I am living in my own timeline' or 'Things will falls into place for me one day' but you can't help to wonder: when is that 'one day' will actually happens to you? Why aren't you living the same timeline like your bestfriend who's already pregnant with her second child? Aren't you good enough either to be a mom? Why are you keep doing the same job...

What do you say when you failed a relationship? You will start blaming time. The thought of "the timing isn't right" will burst out of your mind, being the first cause of why some relationship doesn't work. Why some people aren't together. Why they ghosting other people.  We start using timing as an excuse of why we don't act. Why we never pick up the phone to say we miss them or apologize of things we did to them. Why we met all the wrong people in--we say--the right time and all the right people in what we thought, the wrong time. Timing become an excuse of why life didn't align to the things we want, instead brings us to the things we don't know we need it yet.  Since then we become obsessed with the terms 'good timing', but what exactly a good timing is? Is it when all the things makes sense to us? Or when every moment become convenient for us? Or when we finally have the courage to the things we always want to do, so we kinda feel t...