Mrs. Words

We keep wondering if things could be different for both of us. If time would be more convenient. If he and we actually end up together, instead of looking to each other from the other side of the road.  Either it's a not yet, next time, some other time, or even one day in the near future, there's nothing wonderful and joyful in being someone's almost. we experience a lot of almost in this so-called modern-day dating. Where the two of us could talk so deep, having lots of undeniably fun time together and it feels like we know this person for years. Then it's just gone. Vanished. It's like both of our head gets struck by the pavement and wake up not remembering anything. He can easily decide that we're not his person anymore and move on to find another. Almost is when the two of us lay in the same bed together but realizing the fact that this connection we just build goes up the roof the minute you walk out through that door.  Almost every almost-relationsh...

What do you say when you failed a relationship? You will start blaming time. The thought of "the timing isn't right" will burst out of your mind, being the first cause of why some relationship doesn't work. Why some people aren't together. Why they ghosting other people.  We start using timing as an excuse of why we don't act. Why we never pick up the phone to say we miss them or apologize of things we did to them. Why we met all the wrong people in--we say--the right time and all the right people in what we thought, the wrong time. Timing become an excuse of why life didn't align to the things we want, instead brings us to the things we don't know we need it yet.  Since then we become obsessed with the terms 'good timing', but what exactly a good timing is? Is it when all the things makes sense to us? Or when every moment become convenient for us? Or when we finally have the courage to the things we always want to do, so we kinda feel t...

Sometimes we're so addicted in being someone's good story. Somebody's happy ending. The reason why someone change. The fact that "i change my life since i met her". The beginning. The drama that happened over and over again. The sentimental story that ended up good and we, are the one who plays our part right. Maybe that's why i stay in so many shitty relationship. In the name of "fixing people". Attracted to troubled man, trying to show what does love feel like. Feel happy when i think they're getting better because of us, but actually, it is them who finally realizing their worth on their own. The idea of someone, lost in their way, doesn't know what love is, or never experience the love like what we have. The need to save those kind of people. Who we think lost because they never have love like us. The one who we think the same as us because we've been there. We know all the pain. The rejection. The feeling of being left out. Th...

First, i know it's a little bit crazy, coming from a girl who never dated you. But i'm gonna break up with you.  We were never an exclusive. We were never an item. But i like to believe we almost were. We were never saying 'i love you' to each other. But we have the 'zing'. I know we have the zing when i met you in front of my office when you picked me up from work, asking so eagerly to meet me just before i went to Singapore for vacation. Seems like you want to prove something for yourself and you were too afraid to let me go by even for a day. The zing was too obvious to ignore. I felt it and you felt it too, but you were holding yourself and politely saying be careful on my trip and wishing that you could see me again after my trip.  We worked so well together. There's never a day that our conversation stopped because it gets too boring. Usually because you have to go home, or there's some work getting in your way, or i get too busy with my wor...

Here's the thing about the guy you will marry. You always wishes for the perfect husband. The right guy. The "it" guy. The guy that fit to everyone's description about 'what's a perfect husband look like'. Well, most of you don't know that, there's no thing as the perfect guy to marry. Lol why?  You know, the guy you will marry may not be the most handsome of all. He may not be the most funny, the smartest or the sexiest man alive like Blake. But to you, he's gonna be the most sexiest, the funniest, the smartest and the most handsome of all guy you ever know because the love you have for him gonna make you change all of your description of an 'it' guy, to meet his description.  Suddenly, you find that his awful lame, dad jokes is funny and the way he ate ice cream is sexy, and his smiling face is addicted because it's him who doing it.  Also, the guy you will marry will always makes you feel at home because you alway...